Whether it is by having more money to spend independently, more technology to fill my time, the absence of loneliness in my daily routine, or just a fantasy world where anything is possible;
I indulge myself in this temporary utopia each and every day.
The shortfall is that when I wake up, more than half of the time, I become slightly depressed of how the state of my life currently adds up.
My parents were sort of lucky: I am a child of little demands and requirements.
I have never pestered my parents to purchase or obtain anything that I want without meticulously thinking over my decision for its weightage, use and importance.
Those things that I really, really want are few in between. And I have always fought my way to obtain it with my own capabilities. In short, I always felt that it was my own responsibility to put effort into getting whatever I want; and ensuring that no one else had to uphold the burden of my wants and demands.
I have never pestered my parents to purchase or obtain anything that I want without meticulously thinking over my decision for its weightage, use and importance.
Those things that I really, really want are few in between. And I have always fought my way to obtain it with my own capabilities. In short, I always felt that it was my own responsibility to put effort into getting whatever I want; and ensuring that no one else had to uphold the burden of my wants and demands.
Probably I have gone tired and weary.
I no longer have the motivation to get what I want.
My resolve has weaken. And so has the determination for want.
I no longer have the motivation to get what I want.
My resolve has weaken. And so has the determination for want.
I have concluded that if that something I desire is too far to reach, too hard to obtain, or to painful to procure, I discontinue my search and all efforts of obtaining it.
Now that is the easy part. However, the elimination of desire towards the target is slightly harder to omit and expel.
So it leaves me hanging. Wanting. Craving for that little something.
This is a lesson learnt for the years to come.
You may never get all that you want in your life.
Dissapointment comes with each and every decision: The decision to want and the decision not to want.
Now that is the easy part. However, the elimination of desire towards the target is slightly harder to omit and expel.
So it leaves me hanging. Wanting. Craving for that little something.
This is a lesson learnt for the years to come.
You may never get all that you want in your life.
Dissapointment comes with each and every decision: The decision to want and the decision not to want.
Too bad for me.
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