LonelyKupid

It has been a long and tiring week.

The silence has so forth killed me. And if I haven't died in my physical form, I probably figure that I have been soulfully murdered about 4 times throughout my life. Half of those cases of homicide were because of my pursuits for a better future.

To cope with this is in now effing way easy, I must admit. I do not expect "any" of my friends to be able to survive the pain and despair that I am wading through with scars and burns. Probably one or two special individuals may survive the fatal wounds and dismemberment of apparatuses that forever may leave its mark, but most will have given up.

But rest assured, I have not given up just yet. I think....

Well then, the chase is off. I have lost almost all reason to pursue my heart's desire, much less my souls content. Never has life been so bleak and empty. Time has merely become a measure of comparison; A figure in space without any correlation to the life and soul of the human being.

You have proven to me that sometimes what we may believe to be true might so much only be a mirage in a desert. A phantom in the darkness.

You have convinced me that all my past efforts were merely aimed at the blank sky, pointless and devoid of a destination. Like a monkey that yearns to grab the sun.

You have made me believe that I mean no significance in your life. Even though you may have meant the world to me in the past. A non-reciprocal feeling that I can never hope to get back.

You have enlightened me that I should become stronger and admit defeat more often. For at my current state I am but weak, powerless, hopeless and a pointless being with a meager existence, not significant in any way.

So with utter absolution, I shall declare my pursuits conceded and discontinued.

I shall not convene any feeling of love and romance any longer. I shall defer any personal opinion towards you in any biased manner that I have held so far. I shall stop reaching for the skies to grab the stars that I wish to keep. I shall end my pointless pursuit of paternal happiness that I always needed for myself. I shall stop seeking for the loving kindness that I have never enjoyed with utter pleasure until this day. I shall stop finding ways to make myself happy and contented with my present life.

I shall try to force myself to forget about you. I shall refrain from thinking about the future of you and me. And I vow, never ever, ever, to seek out my other half of a broken soul, and for that magical missing piece of my heart that has never ever been home.

However,

Even in times of despair such as the present, I shall not devoid of my cause and purpose:

To help those that I care for that are in need;

To support those that I cherish whenever they fall;

To brighten up the days of those still in darkness;

To be there when you need me;

To be there when no one else will;

To catch a grenade for you without an ounce of doubt about my own life;

To be a friend, above all else.

It should be common knowledge that a cupid may play matchmaker to countless others, but in terms of his own self, he may never shoot the arrows onto his own body.
So in short, those who help others, will themselves live a solitary life of little assistance.

This is the philosophy of LonelyKupid. A label he has acquired and fought for during the many years of his life. A name that many recognize, and many more acknowledge with utter confidence.
An entity that strives to help others with sure-fire duty and responsibility, without any hope or desire for the deeds to be returned in any way whatsoever.
An entity that garners joy from the joy of others, but never enjoys those of his own.
An entity that appears in times of need, and disappears for the rest of the duration of your lives.

Spot this soul, and befriend him with all your might.
For he will assist you in all your measures of life. He will be there in times of need, wherever, whenever and whoever you are or may be.

For he will also need your support to further his cause in the world. And that if you are helping him, you are helping everyone he knows; and the chain of loving kindness shall live on to the days end.

To find him, find the blue stained molar on any of his mobile communication devices.
Or you can trace this blog back to the e-mail account.

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