Save Game

We will never know when we will leave this world.

We can never plan our departure.

It could be in a hundred years time. It could be in fifty. It could come in ten.

It could come next year, next month, next week, tomorrow.
Heck, maybe we will leave in a few minutes.

This worries me that I might leave with a heavy heart, not achieving all that I want to achieve.

Not being able to do all the things I want to do.

Not being able to tell all the things I want to say.

This few lines practically dictate why sometimes I act in such a brash manner.

I might be rushing for no apparent reason, I might be stressed for nothing.

But the truth is, I want to live the life that I want to live.

But life has it's way of presenting us with barriers or "levels" to pass through before we can reach what we want to achieve. Some "bosses" are easy to defeat, some tougher. Just as well, some rewards are small, others grand.

Just so you know, there aren't many levels where you can "save game" and express everything that you want to say to everyone, what you have achieved and are yet to perform.

I just hope that this "save" is sufficient for the time being.

To my parents and bro;

I may have been a brat. I have been insolent and rude at times. I am lazy, I admit. I know I have never listened to your countless naggings.

To study harder, to exercise XP, to clean up, to be more responsibe, to do things by myself, to not waste time, to practice my piano more, to spend less time on the net, to sleep early.

But rest assured, I take your advises to heart. I know it is for the better of me.

Sorry.

Thank you for cleaning up my mess. Thank you for caring for me. Thank you for teaching me all the skills that I have. Thank you for being there. And thank you for being the mum and dad that I have always had.

To my friends and family;

I may have been selfish. I am sure I have been rude. I have been bad tempered, foul-mouthed, ignorant and uncaring. I have hurt you, both physically and verbally. To some of you, I definitely have hurt you psychologically. To some others, the hurt may be much deeper than that.

You may think that I don't feel the pain, That I am a selfish soul that is cold to the core.

Some of it may be true. But for the most part, I am deeply in regret for creating pain in all your hearts and minds.

I will not blame you if you hate me. It's alright. For I am not perfect. I am, but just an immature child.

I am sorry. I regret. And I try to fix. But I still regret.

On a brighter note, I thank you all for being the best friends that a kid can ever ask for. You all have helped me understand the meaning of friendship and companionship. You have made me a better person.

To All of you. The thousands of you that I want to name but is reluctant to.

Thank you.

XDD

And to that someone out there,

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