Family.

Okay, up to speed.

Primary School: SK Galing.
Secondary School: SMK Sultan Abu Bakar.

College: Taylor's University.

Life has been good generally. Although looking back from where I stand now, I do somehow regret to a certain extent much of the time in primary and secondary school. Nothing adverse went wrong there, it's just that I wished I had spent more time with the friends I had then. I feel slightly detached now from them. Too bad for me, I guess.

College has been better. Well actually, University. I only spent about a month in college. [hehehehe]. Ok, back to the story...
A few months before college, I went to PLKN. First batch in January, to a camp in Sepang. I had an epic and awesome time there. One more thing I learnt was that being included in a group need not be only because you 'knew' each other or had similarities, you could even compile yourselves into a "family". I might sound like an idiot but the idea caught hold in my mind.

I don't know why then. Maybe because I "kekurangan cinto" (-Valery XD), but this organisation of a second family away from home made me feel whole, albeit better.

When I left National Service, I realized and experienced-first hand the pain of separation from the people that you had lived with so closely for the past two months. It might have only been two months, but it has thought me that even within that short period of time, we could create bonds that would last much longer.

Uni life started in July 2010. Just like the first day of school, we will encounter new people, unfamiliar faces and adversely different environments. As things got sorted out and life settled down, someone suggested that we form a "Taylor's Family". Kiddish as it may seem, it became a very large vector in my life and my daily decisions. So much so that it will affect my life as a whole and also the person that is involved in it, me.

So yes, I gained a second family. So what?

We hung out together. We ate together. We did projects together. We partied together. We also traveled together. But most important of all, we had fun together.

So much was done together that I realized the amount of fun you could have with people. Being a slight nerd-recluse before, this was a change in my lifestyle and well-being. I had never been happier. Or so I thought I could..

Just two weeks ago, the course ended. inevitably we parted ways to return home. From there, I could observe the pain that others were experiencing during this moment of separation. I call myself slightly more resilient as I had experienced this before and was more prepared for it. We all knew that Degree was to start in a month and a half, but seeing people off for the first time was sort of new, and some could not handle it as well as it could be.

So today, I sit behind my new lappie. Well, not exactly new but kinda new-ish. Plus today, I reformatted this into a monster.

I think I may be doing this to keep my mind off something I don't want to think about often. The thought ain't bad in any way. It's just that... well... you could say that my life is being turned upside down by something I have never experienced in full force before.

Lets leave it at that for today, shall we?